How do I express myself? Blog Post #3: Late Post, Tammy Flores
Barbara Johnson who trained under Paul De man gives her deconstruction and interpretation on Melville’s Fist. Firstly, I’d like to say that I’ve never heard of the book/story about Melville’s Fist, so I think reading about the deconstruction of it was quite interesting; in the sense that from the little snips and bits of what I’ve read it seems to have this sort of common sense type of feeling to it. What I mean by that is that it was about bad vs. good or something of that sort. Strangely, she interrupted this book to feature a key point and that is a linguistic struggle of one of the characters, Billy Budd. I say strangely because who would’ve thought because one was at a loss of words, it becomes sort of like a linguistic defect, somehow? Like how can you possible not know what you want to say or express even if you have a stutter, another linguistic defect? How can that stop you!?
Billy Budd was associated with handsomeness and innocence and another character Claggart was associated with guilt and a sort of melancholy. The story flips around and the innocent becomes the guilty and the guilty becomes the innocent. I think it was the perfect set up to connect it to Saussure’s Course in Linguistics, briefly, the arbitrariness and thinly connected set up between thought, words, sounds and actions. We have an image of innocence or at least we know what isn’t innocence and so we have an image of that, but Billy Budd isn’t innocent so what do we do if the words we associate such a person turn and become something else?! Do those words start meaning something that connects itself with something negative or do we analyze the error and correct the label and slap it back onto him? The subject, the connection and the word doesn’t necessarily mean it will stay the same forever, but it also seems very strict at the same time, as if it has no fluidity because the society in which we live does not give us any other difference interpretation of the word innocence, in the sense that innocence can’t mean bad! It could mean so many other versions of innocence maybe like a color or a flower but it could never mean anything negative. Weirdly, I think associated the characters to be something they aren’t reminds me of linguistic errors, something we analyze and move on from like it never happened. Strange!
Johnson goes onto say that Claggart actually tries to read between those lines, “master the arbitrariness of the sign” (Johnson 2262.) Sadly, due to this he falsely accuses Billy deeming him guilty and creating this melodramatic image of him until he became what he was called, guilty. Claggart is murdered, accidentally, but murdered by Billy Budd because in a fit of rage he couldn’t express himself. What this reminded me of was the moments in my life where my words could not depict the emotions I was feelings and so we are left with a void on what to do next. In this case, Billy used his body to determine his anger which he dug the hole for himself. Vere, the captain then in a sense becomes the middles ground or at least tries to be, he becomes a judge. In the process of weighting the ups and downs of the situations, he includes historical context between the two involved and even himself! In page 2276 we see that Vere feels a pressure of needing to please the ‘higher ups’ and his own self-conscious. Ultimately, he makes a controversial decision and deems Billy guilty even despite himself personally not thinking so.
We see that language is a bridge some sense. It can conceal, reveal and depict things that one may not even believe can be revealed. Language is what we make of it, which makes everything even more complicated because we can never really disclose what we want to say but at the same time our languages, or any language leaves a person so vulnerable, including the concepts behind the tone of voice.

